Another Weekend!!

Yet another weekend round the corner.. Think I am beginning to face what I call the "weekend blues". There are a lot of things I would love to do over the weekends but it never materializes. For some reason or the other, the plans are cancelled.

Today morning it struck me that Tuesday is a holiday. Was thinking of an extending the weekend by taking Monday off. But, then Denzi is working on Tuesday so its not an extended weekend for him.. That leaves just the 2 of us, Shirish and me. Plans cancelled.

We thought of going trekking tomorrow. But again just the 3 of us. So plan cancelled again. Beach futbol, again 3 only. Plan cancelled.

I have stopped expecting too much from weekends these days.. Earlier we used to start sending off mails on tuesday itself to plan our weekends. Nowadays, if at all it happens, its only Shirish and me who plan. When plans are discussed with friends, again its boils down to only a couple of us implementing.

Life like this, I guess. :)

I Love...

• I love hanging out with friends (Sadly, only a few friends remaining to hang out with)
• I love lazing on my couch (Sadly, my mom doesn’t like me doing this)
• I love surfing channels on TV while lazing on my couch (Sadly, my mom hates me doing this)
• I love surfing channels on TV while munching on stuff lazing on my couch (Sadly, my mom throws a huge tantrum when she sees me doing this)
• I love falling asleep on my couch after I am bored munching and surfing channels (Sadly, mom does not like this too)
• I love driving my little car (Sadly, my dad doesn’t like me burning petrol this way)
• I love listening to music while driving my little car (Sadly, I hardly get to drive my car)
• I love listening to Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. Am listening to it now. (Surprisingly, no one has an issue with me doing this)
• I love being alone at times (Sadly, lots of people have problems with this)
• I love dreaming when I am alone (Sadly, I do not get time to be all alone)
• I love dreaming in the night when I am trying to sleep (Glad no one knows I do this)
• I love photographing (Sadly, I think I do not get chances to click good photos. I think I tend to miss on the good opportunities to catch good pics. Maybe, I am just not that creative)
• I love thinking I am a good photographer (Sadly, not many not think so)
• I love looking at good photographs clicked by amateurs (Yay!! I can do this without any problems)
• I love eating (Lots of issues with this.. Weight. Paunch.. junk food.. Health.. etc etc)
• I love walking on beaches (Sadly, hardly get to go to the beaches. Gorai beach is close by but it seriously needs cleaning)
• I love traveling (Sadly, do not get the opportunity too much. I hate traveling alone. I need company. Rarely do I get company)
• I love traveling in my car while wearing my shorts (Well, Dad has an issue with me taking the car out for drives too often, but no one dare have issues with my shorts.. hehe)
• I love watching travel shows (Well, this is when I am at home. AND when the remote is in my hands AND when there is no cricket match on)
• I love the show “Freedom Express” on Channel V (Sadly, plays only when Independence Day is nearing)
• I love the promos of the new show "My India Report" on Channel V (Sadly, I haven't had the time to catch the show yet)
• I love collecting die-cast models of cars and bikes (Alas, I have only a few and I lost 2 of my bikes)
• I love surfing the net (Sadly, my net isn't working)

So many things I love to do.. But for some reason or the other, I do not get to do these things.. Waiting for the time when I can do all of these without any problems.. Hehe.. see, just as I said..I love to dream.. Dream on...

Back on track

Today I was watching this video of the song "Chak De India".. What caught my attention in this song were the small captions that were being displayed throughout the video.. These captions were commonly used words of inspiration.. But it did have an affect on me. I thought the words were wonderfully made.. Don't know what it was.. Whether it was the depth of the words or simply the way these words were portrayed..

Excerpts from the songs video:

• Think big
• Dream on
• Right a wrong (Loved this one)
• Dare to fly
• Sometimes winning is everything (loved this one too)
• Take a stand
• Choose a high (another good one)
• Now or never
• Leave your mark
• Kill doubt
• Stand for something
• Prove something
• Make waves
• Never say die

I think these little words of inspiration, on a particular day can make such a huge impact on one’s life. It just depends on the day. These words may not have had such on impact on me any other day, but today it did.

It gave e a reason to go out and fight. Its given me a new zest and out look towards life. Its given me a fighting spirit. It has brought out the spirit of never let go..

Am glad I decided to leave late for work. It gave me the extra time in the morning to watch TV. :-)

Topsy turvy life

Life's not a smooth ride these days..
Everyday I come in to work, people ask me if I am fine.. My good friends ask me if I am fine or if they have done something to upset me.. Why?? why?? I think I am fine.. then why do people ask me such questions?? Is it just me?? Am I really behaving weird?? Once in a while if people ask you this, its fine.. but this has become a regular feature.. Everyday its become a routine.. This is scaring me.. Have I really turned into someone who knows only to sulk and crib??

I think I need a break.. I don't want to be known as someone like this.. This is not the way I think I am.. At times, I feel i am really acting weird.. I don't know if I am really acting weird or if it is only because people tell me so..

This is not just at work.. even at home.. everyday I go home, I pray for things to go cool.. I pray I do not get irritated and end up fighting.. All I do when I am home is eat and then sleep.. I think its been ages since I last sat and had a discussion with Mom, dad and sis.. I want to.. but I can't.. I get irritated soon.. and then I end up arguing... I, at times, find excuses to stay away from home.. I try to stay back at work.. reach home late so that all I would have to do is eat and then hit the bed...

Don't feel like writing any more..

Me going nuts..

Am back after a long long time.. I usually am back here when am fed up of life.. when I am frustrated.. Its the same reason today but its slightly different this time around..

I always know why I am frustrated.. angry etc.. but this time around, I know I am not fine.. I know I am frustrated.. but I do not know the reason why.. I am getting irritated by little things in life.. and I don't know why..

The other day I had a huge fight at home.. I ended up sulking and confining to myself for about 3 days.. It was bugging.. In office, I do not feel like working.. I know what needs to be done, but I just don't feel like doing it.. Its driving my crazy.. I receive mails but I do not reply even though I know what needs to be done.. All I need to do is forward mails, but I don't do that too..

Hope this is just a phase and it passes soon.. Or maybe atleast hope I figure out whats wrong soon so that I can do something about it..