Does the tunnel end here?

I do not know what it is but I seem to have lost all interest in working at my current workplace. I am bored to the core now. I think I can comfortably attribute this to the project I am working on. I have worked on several projects, a few difficult ones too, but never come across a project like this.

I cannot count one thing on this project that I can confidently say is going right. The resources here are bored. The clients do not know what they want. There seems to be infighting at the client side. There is a lot of politics in the team here. The writers are least interested. The management is helpless (or should I aptly say 'clueless'?)

I am lost and I want to find my way out. There are 2 ways out; one, move a different project within the same organization or two, move to a different organization. With the current market situation, both these ways out are difficult. Since there aren’t any new project coming in from the US, the chances of getting into another project in the same organization is slim. Also, since the market is so bad, it is not a good time to switch jobs. Never know which company declares bankruptcy or starts to layoff. In both scenarios, the first targets for layoffs are the new joinees.

I am in a fix.I sure cannot live through this project for a month or so more. I will go crazy by the end of it all. I feel helpless. Like they say, there is light at the end of every tunnel, I do not see light yet. Maybe I am not at the end of the tunnel yet. Don't know how far I got to go before I reach the end.

The Mumbai Spirit

I am writing after a very long time today and I will not write about work as I usually do. I have always been using this blog as a place to vent my frustration and anger at work but now I realize that these issues are miniscule in comparison to the lot of other things happening around us all.
The 'latest' attacks on Mumbai seem to have shattered the famous "Mumbai Spirit" and I am glad it did. This "Chalta hai. Ho gaya" attitude of Mumbai needed to end and I think it just did. There has been a clear difference in the way Mumbaikars have responded to these latest attacks and its a revelation. I would like to let the media take the credit of bringing an end to this sickening attitude. However, I think that this was imbibed into the Mumbaikars by the media a long time back. Anyways, I am glad the media has made up for it now. Better late than never.
These attacks have raised a lot of questions. Questions were raised earlier too but answers were not demanded. This time, the Mumbaikars are demanding answers from the people they have chosen to run the country. And, I am not surprised, our chosen leaders have no good answers to give. I see anger in the eyes of every citizen of the country. There is a lot of angst among the people of the country.
I can still remember Barkha Dutt interview this young survivor from Taj and its going to remain in my mind for a long time to come. This young man was rescued from the Taj on Friday and he had already given an interview to NDTV describing his traumatic experience. On Saturday morning, when the military operations at the 3 locations were called successful, Narendra Modi announced some compensation to those killed in the blasts. Later that evening, Barkha Dutt was interviewing a group of people who had gathered at the Taj with candles to show their grief. This young survivor was in the group. Barkha Dutt spoke to this person and this is what he had to say;
"I was sitting at home and watching the coverage on TV and when I heard Narendra Modi offer compensation, I was furious and I had to come talk to you. What rights does Narendra Modi have to be on the streets offering compensation? Narendra Modi should not have come to the Taj. He should not be here."
I was touched. The young man could hardly talk. He was shaking but he made such a bold statement. The politicians got out of their shells after the state was declared safe and started offering compensations. Who needs the compensations? We need an assurance. We need confidence. Assurance of safety. Confidence of stepping out of the house every morning and being back home safe after a hard day's work.
We need to applaud the media for their coverage of these terror attacks. The media, this time around, has been ruthless and fearless in putting front the truth. The media has been tremendously honest in making public the bitter truths of the politicians. Now that the media has started this, I hope they continue doing so. I would love the media to rip apart these politicians with the questions that a common man has.
I was just talking to a friend and we were thinking of immediately getting our voter's card done so that we can be ready and prepared for the next elections. What flashed my mind next should not have been a surprise to me "Whom do I vote for?". Such is the respect that I have for our politicians now. Whatever the party, Congress, BJP, NCP, Shiv Sena, MNS, I am not sure if I want to vote for any of them. For me, all politicians are the same; irresponsible.
I hope this mindsetof mine changes. I hope someone stands up tall among the crowd of politicians to take on the responsibility. But for now, enough is enough.

Am I the only one?

Yes, this is what this blog has become. A place for me to vent my anger and frustration from work. I don't know if this is healthy but I do not care. I need to get it out of my system and this is where I can do it without causing much complications. Well, hopefully!

Its been about a month today since the project started. One month and about a quarter of the project later, a writer asks me a question the answer to which I have repeated over and over again for the last one month. And this writer comes up with this question now. I am irritated but I am not supposed to show my anger and frustration at work. I am supposed to explain and that is what I did. Its like this joke/comment we had in college "पुरे रामायण सुन ने के बाद पूछता है की राम कौन है." I can very well relate this to the incident today. I kept cool.

Installing a device vs Installing a driver. I wrote about 3 mails to a writer explaining that there is no real difference in installing a driver and installing a device if the driver is for the same device. What you basically are doing is nothing but installing the device when you are installing the driver for it. I was cool again. Exchanged 3 sweet and polite mails with the writer. Yes, I did add a couple of smilies in each mail.

A writer takes off for a vacation without bothering to inform me. I send him a mail and he replies saying that he is on a vacation with his family and will be back in office only next week. Excuse me? Whatever happened to informing your manager about this vacation. Well, this happened last Monday. The writer was to be in office today. I wait for a mail from the writer but when I did not see any till about 11am, I sent a mail asking about the status. An hour later, I see a reply. A one liner "I'm finishing it now and then was planning on sending it to a peer to review before forwarding to you." Ok.. Its 6:40pm now. I haven't seen a mail on whether this document is in peer review. I had another mail out to this writer at about 2:30pm. I asked the writer to let me know when done so that I could assign more work. No reply. What do I do? I have escalated this issue earlier too. My boss says we need to talk about this writer with the person who hired this person. And this "hirer" is out on a vacation.

We are late on this project. Very late. We are about 2 weeks behind schedule. The clients needed an updated schedule by end of today. I work on my long weekend to get a new schedule ready. I get it approved from my boss. However, we both agree it would be a good idea to discuss this with out Account manager. The account manager does not make it to the early morning call we have to discuss the updated schedule. Since, I am the one here, I was asked to forward this to the account manager and get inputs and then send out the schedule to the client. I sent the schedule to the account manager at about 9:30am. 2 mail reminders and a zillion attempts to catch the person online later, the account manager responds at 6pm with suggestions to the schedule. I, then, update the schedule and then send it out to the client and its 6:45pm. My day started at 8 in the morning with a call and I am not sure if I am ready to call it a day as yet. Oh yeah, this story doesn't end here. The person from the client side who asked for this updated schedule by EOD today is OOO till tomorrow morning. So all this hurry and efforts for nothing. The clients are not going to look at this till tomorrow morning.

I spent half the day today explaining comments from the technical reviewer to a writer. It was crazy. Firstly, this writer goes adding content and questions which aren't really helping in making the content any better. Then, the writer needs me to explain every single comment I ask her to reject.

I have come to this conclusion that some people are on this team are only here to follow instructions. They need spoon feeding. It reminds me of this mask thats put over horse's eyes to make sure they see only straight and walk on the right path. This team is similar to a horse with this mask. They walk on the path that has been set but do not think with an open mind. The project requires that the writers have open minds and come up with ideas to present the content in a better way. There are many correct paths for this horse but the trick is to take the path that is most beneficial to all. And this is not easy.

Ok. Am feeling better now. That's it for now.

Fortune cookies

Do you believe in fortune cookies? I do not know if I should believe in them or not. If I go by the last 2 cookies I have broken, I would love to believe them. :)

Life hasn’t been all that great over the last few days. In fact over the last nineteen days, I haven’t been in the best frame of mind. I have been torturing myself by the fact that I am alone in this tiny town with no one to talk to. I am not saying that this is not true anymore. I am not saying that I will not be torturing myself about the thought. I am pretty sure I will. I will, in most probability, continue to torture myself over the fact that I am alone with no one to talk to. I will, in most probably, continue to torture myself over the fact that I have nothing to do after office hours. I will, for sure, continue to torture myself over the fact that I miss the Mumbai office. The people in the Mumbai office are so different. There is a kind of warmth I feel when I am there. I do not feel comfortable here. I need someone to talk to. I have always had someone with me whenever I was in the US. But this time, I am all alone. People here are least interested in making conversation with you. I don’t know what the reason is. Maybe they like this normally. Maybe they not interested in making conversation with an Indian. Maybe they not interested in talking to me because they do not like me as their boss. God alone would know. Maybe there is something that I am doing wrong. Maybe they are waiting for me to make the first move. I have tried but I cannot. I am built that way. :)

Apart from these “public relation” issues, I am facing several other issues like food, conveyance to get around etc. I am not going to crib about it all over again now. I have cribbed enough about it here. Well, I am going to continue cribbing though, maybe not here though. :)

I started this out talking about fortune cookies. The reason being that these fortune cookies are getting me to think positive. This might sound a bit silly or kiddish, but it’s true. I am not saying it has got me to think positive but yeah, it surely brings a smile to my face when I read them. :)

Ever since I've come here, I’ve got 2 fortune cookies. Here’s what they said:

Cookie #1: Your talents will be recognized and rewarded.
Cookie #2: Your path may be difficult, but will be rewarding.

I am trying to relate this to my situation. I am on a difficult path. I am not sure if the path is really difficult or if it’s just me who is making it difficult. But, whatever it is, I will expect a reward at the end of all this. :)

Living in Boise

Today is my seventeenth day in Boise and I can confidently say that this period has been one of the worst in all the 25 years and 6 months of my existence on this planet. I say so for a varied lot of reasons like the work I am here for, the food, the place around the hotel etc. Actually it’s not just about these factors but I have come to believe that staying alone at any place is not easy. But the good thing is that staying all alone in a far country has also taught me a few things.

I am here to manage my first project. And I know how important this project is to my company and to my own personal career. So there is pressure. Pressure to make sure that the project goes good and the customer is happy. What I find difficult to cope with is the fact that I am here managing my first project that has a team full of people I just do not know. I had never met or spoken to these people before. I do not know how each person behaves or reacts to situations. And I am responsible for this team. Also, the team is distributed meaning, some of the team sits in Boise, some in San Diego, and another in Corvallis. This makes it even more difficult. I am not used to the work culture here. Here people come in and leave office whenever they want to. In India, if I am to manage a project, I at least know the team, I know the way people in the team will react to situations, and I know the team members schedule. I know the team comes in at 9:30am and so I can plan accordingly. Here it is difficult to manage this. Moreover, some of the team members are part-time. So they work only for a fixed time per week. I have never managed anything like this before. Apart from all these problems, the usual official politics exist along with a few difficult people.

Moreover, I am not sure of how the project is going. As in, I haven’t really had proper feedback from the customers. From the feedback I am getting on individual documents, I have mixed feelings. Some documents receive great feedback while some receive a hell a lot of changes. So I don’t really know. Hopefully I know soon.

I do not think I am having great food here. The hotel provides complimentary breakfast that I enjoy but after that, it’s a problem. I have been living on packets on maggi and Knoor soup. The Knoor soup sucks. There are a few restaurants around the hotel. There is a pizza place, a deli corner, a steakhouse, and a Chinese place. But I am not too interested in any of this. I end up eating fruits for lunch and some maggi for dinner. Yeah, I do order some Chinese food at times for dinner, but the Chinese food here is nothing like the Chinese food in India.

I do not have a car here which makes it difficult to move around. I wanted to go downtown to see the place since I heard it is much more happening than the place where I stay. But have never been able to get there. Hiring a cab is too expensive since it would take about 60$ from my 45$ per day allowance. Taking the bus is the only option I got. However, the last bus, to and from downtown, departs at 6:35pm and I am out of office only at about 5. This leaves me with no time to actually catch a bus, go downtown, see the place, and then catch the 6:35pm bus from there. So I have been confined to the area around the hotel. The area around the hotel is not bad to spend about 2 days after that there is nothing much that you can do.

After all these hardships, I have come to realize this: I am a person who is too emotional and am very attached my folks. I have been missing them a lot over these past 17 days. I am very happy that I can talk to my folks back home daily. I have been chatting with them daily in the morning. Thanks to technology. :)
Guess I’ll stop cribbing for the day. :) I’ll have more to say as I live through my days in Boise.

Second week in Boise

I am writing from office today. I do not have a lot of work today. Well, at least for now. The project seems to be falling into place now. Every team member has kind of identified the role they play in the team. So I am assuming it should be better off from now.

We did face a few hiccups initially but I guess these are normal with any project. The customer decided to change the scope of the project on Friday and yesterday they gave us new guidelines to follow. I think with the new guidelines, our job is going to be that much easier. Just that we are now going to write for an intermediate audience and this is going to change our approach a lot. We now, do not have to bother about the technical details that we thought the novice user might not understand. We do not need to hand hold the users right from start to end. So that’s cool. :)

Back in the US

Yes.. I am back in the US aftera year and 7 months. How do I feel coming back? Well.. not too great! But it's ok. Got to live with it. :)
I am in Boise (ID) this time around. Its a pretty place but a "pretty" sad place too. :) Its a nice laidback town and not for a person who's lived most of his life in fast-paced streets of Bombay. Ahh Bombay-Bombay.. I miss you so much.. And yeah.. I miss a lot of other people in Bombay.. I miss my folks back home..I miss my friends.. I miss Krups and Pri in office.. I miss them all.. :(
I did nothing much today. Got up early (this is something that has surprised me in this trip. I seem to be getting up really early). Where is the Tarun I know?? Where is the laziness gone?? Where has the Tarun"ness" gone?? hehe.. I do not like this but I know my parents will. Anyways, someone is happy that I get up early. :) Yeah, so I got up early, spoke to mom and dad..Spoke to friends.. it was afternoon by then.. Had lunch and watched a movie..
I had decided to go to Albertsons today.. I went up there.. Walked up there.. 45 mins walk one way.. but out of nowhere I had this real bad urge to go to Albertsons to day.. So I did.. The route was a bit scary for abt 5 seconds.. There were pavements all the way.. but for those 5 seconds it looked like the shrubs around hadn't been cut in a while.. but I managed to reach Albertsons.. Shopped a bit, got a soda and then walked back home.. Phew! I was tired..
I had shopped for some shrimps and veggies.. I decided to cook them.. Got the veggies cut.. added butter.. put them in the micro and cooked them for a while.. then added the shrimps and cooked again for a while.. It turned out good.. with just a "little" bit of extra salt. :)
And now I am watching this movie "kismet Konnection"..Looks like Iam going to end up watching more hindi movies here than when I was in India.
Alrighty.. am gonna go back to the movie now.. Decided to write this while i was listening to this amazing love song from the movie "BaKhuda".. I think its a great song.. Really nice.. :)
Ok.. songs over.. now back to the movie..Ciao..

माय फर्स्ट हिन्दी पोस्ट

यह मेरा पहला हिन्दी पोस्ट है। पता नही क्या लिखू लेकिन मुझे कुछ न कुछ तोह लिखना ही है।

आज मेरे ऑफिस की एक और दोस्त ने छोड़ने की ठान ली है। hmmm.. ठान लिया है की पता नही लेकिन बोल तोह रही है। उसने तोह उसके बॉस से बात भी कर ली। ऐसा लगता है की एक दिन में इस ऑफिस में अकेले ही रह जाऊँगा। मुझे यह पसंद नही। मुझे भी यहाँ से निकलना है। मुझे भी किस्सी और कंपनी में जाना है। मुझे भी कोई अच्छा ऑफर चाहिए। कब आएगा वोह दिन।

बस, आज के लिए इतना ही। पाक गया में हिन्दी में लिखते लिखते। टाटा, बाय-बाय. सी यू।

Hehehe.. this was fun.. but guess this is the last time you will see a post in hindi from me.. I like this feature.. I'll use them to write one off words in hindi in my future post.. Guess gaalis are best given in hindi.. hehe.. and by the look of how things are going, am gonna give a lot of gaalis here.. :)

Need a hike, desperately!

I've decided to post something here at least once a week. Let’s see if I can stick to this.

A while ago, I was discussing with a friend about an offer that she has got from another company. She is also taking up a housing loan like I already have. Our current salaries are almost similar and we kind of like a similar lifestyle. We like eating out at good places often. We like watching movies once in a while. We like travelling in comfort, i.e. by ricks or by car. The only difference is that she is married and I am not. While talking to her, I realized how difficult it is going to be for me to live the same lifestyle after a year or so.

I intend to get married in about 18-20 months from now. Currently, after deducting my EMI amount, I am left with a couple of thousand rupees to spare. I spend this amount for my luxurious commute to work, my lavish meals, and some outings with friends. Even at the age of 25, I haven't yet started footing my household bills. My dad takes care of it all. I only pay up the recurring loan installments.

My dad is due to retire in the next couple of years. I need to start taking on the household responsibilities soon. I am assuming my dad shells out about 25K a month on the household bills. I shell out 20K on the monthly installments. So, in a couple of years when I take on the household expenses too, my monthly outgoings would go up to at least about a cool 45K. 45K is way too much. I do not even have a CTC that amounts of 45K a month. How am I going to manage? To top it, I need to save. I need to save for my sister's wedding. I need to save for my wedding. This is way too much. I am scared.

With 45K to cough up every month, I will need to have a compensation of at least 50K from my company. Life’s difficult. I need to raise my expectations now. I’ve been telling consultants that I expect about 8lakhs if I jump to another company. But, now I am gonna raise this to about 8.5lakhs at least. With a CTC of 8.5 lakhs, I think I should have about 50K in hand at the end of each month. Wow! 8.5 lakhs. This is going to be a tough ask. It's going to be tough for me to find a good enough company that needs me to take up challenging work for them and are also ready to pay me what I expect.

When I say all of this, I am not scared. I am eager. Yes, there is a bit of anxiety inside of me but I know it is not fear. I am ready to face all the challenges that life has to throw at me. :) I am sure there's something good at the end of it all. Like they say, "If it's not a good end, it’s not the end." :) I have been reading a book off and on. One line in the book caught my attention: If you see it in your mind, you'll have it in your hands. All you need to do is know what you want, have a clear picture of it in your mind, and work towards it. You will end up doing it.

Sports Federations in India Sucks

There is a lot I want to write about- about work, about family, about IPL. I don’t know where to start from. Let’s keep work aside for a while. I could continue writing till eternity cribbing about the work and the work place.
For a change, I’ll talk about sports in India from my point of view. I have this little cousin who is amazing at swimming. She's the national champ in swimming. She’s broken several national records with her amazing skills. She has won gold medals for India at the Southeast Asian Federation games at Colombo, Sri Lanka. She has proved her caliber time and again. But the problem is her sponsorship. My aunty and uncle are not able to sponsor her for bigger tournaments. Swimming is an expensive sport. The government doesn't bother. All the government bothers is about cricket.
I always believed that to become big in any sport, you need to know influential people. My faith has only become stronger. BCCI has allotted some crores of rupees for the upliftment of sports other than cricket. A very good deed. Dying sports like hockey, football, and swimming could do with such funds. But what’s the use of such funds if deserving people cannot make use of it? What’s the use of such funds if you cannot make use of it unless you know influential people?
My sister received a call from the Swimming Federation of India and told her parents that they plan on sending her to Mexico for a big event. Good news, isn’t it? But there were some clauses that they could just not agree upon. :( Her parents had to arrange for 1.40 lakhs to send her to Mexico. And the Swimming Federation being a government body weren't ready to sponsor her. They said that they have to arrange for the moolah now and later they "might" get it reimbursed from the government. Might?? This is crazy. And yes, her parents had to give the Federation an answer right then. What was to happen? Her father had to refuse saying that they might not be able to arrange for that kind of money.
I know that my sister must have been heartbroken on hearing that she will not be able to make it to Mexico because of the funds. And to top it, her colleague is going to replace her. A colleague who hasn’t performed as well as she has, but her parents can easily arrange for the funds. Imagine my sister having to wish this "lesser deserving" candidate the very best for the games. This candidate’s family can easily arrange for the 1.40 lakhs themselves, but they are going to take the funds from BCCI's allotment for other sports. Why could my sister not make use of this allotment?? She isn't the niece of a very famous cricket commentator.
I know this is how the world functions these days. I cannot blame other people for it. In today's world, if you have money and fame, the world is your playground. I would have expected my family to stand up for her and arrange funds for her. I know I could have chipped in with whatever I have. But alas, I cannot. I have bought a house and I am clearing off the loan for it. Was buying a house when we already had one really important? I have no answers to that. After hearing this, I am not too sure. My older uncle has a very big flat in one of the classiest areas of Mumbai. He has another big flat in another budding area of Mumbai. The interiors of his house must be worth a bomb. He’s got 2 good cars. But still, he cannot help her with 1.40 lakhs. My younger uncle has 2 flats in another swish locality in Mumbai. He’s migrated abroad now. Don't know if he knows about this, but I don’t know if he could have helped. I know they might all have their own problems, but this is what I feel from the outside. If they have problems of their own, I am sorry but I am just feeling bad for this champion sister of mine.
I wish I could do something for her. She has been performing and proving her worth time and again. But, unfortunately, she’s never got her share of luck. A lot of people have made big bucks because of her. Her coach is, today, India's most sought after swimming coach. Thanks to the laurels my sister got for him. He coaches in the one of the biggest swimming clubs of Mumbai. He's bought himself a big car. He hasn't forgotten his champion swimmer. He recognizes and thanks her repeatedly. But I do not understand why he cannot find a sponsor for her?? If he is trying, we will all be grateful.I just hope something good happens for her soon.
I know she is heartbroken after she learnt that her colleague is making the most of her lost opportunity. Don't worry, gal. Hang in there. I am sure success is round the corner. All this is only going to make the taste of success sweeter.

Life!!!

Things are getting serious now, both on the job and personal fronts.
Here’s what's happening on the job front: I have a job offer in hand. The designation is that of an Associate Documentation Manager. The salary that they are offering is 6.45L pa. I think I have a very tough decision to make. The designation is inviting but the salary isn't. If I am to take this up, I will need to relocate to Pune and sign a 1-year bond. In my present company, I am at a CTC of 4.45L pa. I am due for an appraisal in 2 months and if I assume that the appraisals are gonna be consistent with last time, I will be expecting an increase of anything between 20-25%. Plus, I have onsite opportunities here. What I lack here is the designation and that is very important. Let’s see what I decide.
On the personal front, again, lots happening. I have had an argument with my girl yet again. I asked her a silly question. I asked her if she would take care of my family. I know she will. I know she takes care of her family even now. But what scares me is that she is very ambitious. She wants to grow a lot in her career. I wonder if she will be able to pay equal attention to family when she has added responsibilities of her job and position. She questions me if I would sacrifice my career for the family. I have no answers to that. I have seen examples where relationships have gone for a toss when career takes the front seat. Another manager in my company stays in Mumbai and her husband works elsewhere. She could easily get a transfer to the same place as her husband but no, her career is important to her. I wonder if she will be able to balance her official calls and trips with her responsibilities towards the family. I know she is not wrong in saying that she has worked hard in getting her degree and she wants to make use of it now. But I am worried. All these things play on my mind. But at the same time, I have my immediate boss who has a good family life. She has 2 grown-up kids, a husband who is doing amazingly well at his job, and she herself isn't doing bad in her career.
The other thing that scares me is that she is a person who hardly gets along with people. The other day, she got angry and decided that she doesn't like a colleague because she said that she looked like a person she doesn’t like. To top it, she heard this from someone. Come on yaar, what has she done to you?? She hardly talks to you.. And she just said something that was on her mind and it surely wasn't rude. How can you not like a person for such small things? These things scare me. These maybe small things, but they so scare me..

Mess @ Work

A lot of things have been happening at work. A real lot. Don' know if it's for the good or bad. Either way, I do not see any good happening for me. There are a lot of things that have been going through my mind over the last couple of days:
1. No*&a: This is a new project that interests me. I was told that I would be working on this project when it starts. Good thing?? Of course. Why would I not be happy when I am given a chance to work on a project that interests me? Of course I am. But the problem is this – It’s been almost 10 months since I have been hearing this from my manager but nothing has materialized as yet. Why? God alone knows. On enquiring, the only answer I get is "Talks are on." Brilliant. Keep talking. When you are done talking and feel like doing some work, I'll be there waiting for you.
2. Noteb@@ks: Another project that really interested me. I was told I would be leading this division. Talks went on. Finally the talks got over and they decided to work on this. ave All of a sudden, they decided to get someone else to do the pilots. The pilots did not go off too well for reasons that no one knows as yet and we loose the project. Yet another opportunity that slips through.
3. Gen#%al M@t@rs: A pretty good project about cars. Cars interest me so the project immediately caught my attention. Things were going smooth and fast. No delays with this one. I was interviewed by the clients and things were perfect. I was told that the client would get back in a couple of days with the work. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, but I did not hear anything. I was expecting my managers to come up and tell me about this. After not hearing from my managers, I asked. I learnt that the client did not come back. I had heard of something like "Follow up mails".

Life sucks!!

Reasons?? Plenty:

1. Its been a daily routine to have arguments at home now.
2. My daily arguments causes my Dad's blood pressure, sugar level shoot.
3. My financial status is at an all time low. Credit card debts upto 15K now. Have received upto 13 calls from these guys in a single day.
4. My health isn’t at its best. Have boils in my armpits that doesn’t seem to be improving even after taking medicines worth 500 for ten days..
5. Lots of responsibility thrusted upon me at work at the same salary and position. Don’t know how to tell them that I am not their slave to work as they tell me.
6. People get angry with every little thing I say or do.

Thus, my life sucks.