My bloody fucking , blood-sucking company

I enjoyed an entire 1 Kg Dutch chocolate cake today with a few of my friends.. Nah.. that was not the intention of buying the cake in the first place.. We bought the cake to bid farewell to one of our dear collegues. But no. that was not to happen. Our bloody fucking company managed to play their good ol' dirty tricks and made her stay. This time they did not release her well deserved relieving letter. They gave her crap about being under the bond period and other big shit..

What she actually deserved was a wonderful farewell for all the hard work and efforts she has put in to get the team to where it stands today. I am not sure what they were thinking when they "convinced" her to stay.. a feeling a triumph?? I do not think so. I think they have made a very wrong decision in making her stay. Why?? Simply because I do not think she will respect the company or her job anymore. Why would I even feel like working here when u not being paid half the amount worth the efforts you put in?

I am feeling really bad and frustrated and irate at this moment. The blood-sucking madarchods make us work our ass out here and then give us peanuts.. We are not given enough opportunities here and when we find good promising opportunities for ourselves outside these bastards do not relieve us. The entire upper management seems to be apt for the term "management whores". All they can think of is profits.. Give us good opportunities here and we will stay. Its not a bad place, but we cannot feed ourselves and our families with a couple of good words.

Madarchods tell us that the entire projects is burdened on our shoulders. They taking in new projects based on the fact that we have been doing good jobs with our current projects.. but they are not ready to recognise our efforts financially. Crap.. Bastards ask us to trust them.. Trust?? Excuse me.. we did that for 1 whole damn year.. What did we get?? Nothing but big promises.. huge promises..fucking yes.. how did I forget.. we got zillions and zillions of appreciation. :)

Sometimes think these bastards do not know the meaning of the word Trust..We will pay you what you are worth, trust us?? Arre madarchod, we are doing that for the past 1 year now.. how much longer do you want us to trust??

Kya karenge behenchod itna paisa bachake.. these guys get an incentive from the amount of profit their department makes.. with the value of the dollar falling, how to maximise profits?? Hum "mazdoor" logon ka paisa mat badhao.. Behenchod kitna paisa khayega hum logon ka..bastards must be minting money..

even the HR department.. they have the guts to bloody send a mail out saying that the appraisals have been delayed by a month. A month?? Bastards.. We never say that for our projects.. "Sorry, the delivery that was supposed to be done today has been delayed for a month. Please expect the delivery to be done next month." Ever imagine sending out such a mail to our clients?? These bastards have done it.. Imagine the state of the people who have commitments and are expecting a good salary for this month?? for example me, I have spent 4 fucking months borrowing money from people.. I was expecting a good raise and thought I could be back to my usual enjoying self.. but no.. one more fucking month of borrowing money from dad. I hate it.. 24 running 25.. I should be givng money at home for their daily expenses and I shamelessly take money from dad.. :((

Life feels like a huge shit hole.. Every tom dick and harry comes and gives crap. I hate it.. feel like drinking away to glory today.. but no.. Am as broke as I have been for the past 4 fucking months..

Sorry.. Had to write abt work

Well.. I know a few minutes ago, I had decided not to talk abt work.. but, couldn't stop myself.. What instigated me to write the most is that fact that I am all alone here on this freaking 5th floor.. and the freaking company adheres to its cost cutting policy and switches off the lights around me.. been 5 minutes since I have asked the security to get the lights on.. Not done yet!!



Hmm.. work.. Don't think I am working at the same place that I joined about 3 years ago.. the first couple of years here were fun.. lots of friends.. lots of fun.. lots of work..now, its different.. Lots of work.. Few friends.. almost no fun.. :( Why?? I don't quiet know.. Maybe its got to do with the fact that the higher you move up the ladder, the fewer friends you have.. Yes.. I am climbing up the ladder.. I see around and I do not see friends.. yes.. there are a couple of good friends here but the rest, am not too sure.. We talk, we laugh, but am not sure if we really laughing from our hearts..



Its been about 18 months in this new department of mine.. I joined this department because of 3 things..

1. My immediate boss: I really admire this female. Think she is a very good boss. Hmmm, yeah.. a good boss is the one who can please both the management and the resources.. Ok fine, the management needs to be pleased more.


2. Overseas opportunity: This department gave me 2 wonderful opportunities to visit the US and work there for about 7 months.. Really enjoyed the experience..


3. The change: I really needed a change from my earlier role. I wanted to move on.. this oppurtunity gave me the chance to move on and take up a different role.

There I was, October 2005, in this new department with a vey very good friend of mine.. We were joined by 3 other new people.. Well, 2 new and 1 person new to the writing world.. We formed the pilot team of this new project.. We attended trainings, completed assignments etc etc.. Even way back then, the ice was obvious.. I could never get myself comfortable with the 3 new people.. But yeah.. work continued.. we got more work.. all oof us travelled to the US.. We had fun together there.. good days.. The client was happy with our work.. they gave us more work..

The client was happy.. our management was happy.. but what abt us?? we ever not.. we were overworked.. paid peanuts.. :( A few days earlier, we won a bid worth $5 million.. what do we get.. a 5-star each?? wat next?? a 7-up when we win a $7 million bid?? This is not done.. We have given everything we have to this project.. I have spent days out here.. late nights.. all for what?? a few peanuts?? no.. I did it because I expected something more when the project does well.. Think I was expecting a bit too much.. I forgot that I am supposed to work for the benefit and profit of the organization and not for self growth.. I have been given several promises.. lots of good stuff has been said abt me.. but these people got to realize.. it all comes down to money.. you got to show me the money to have me stick around here.. Words of appreciation is good.. its needed.. but at the same time, you need to be appreciated in kind..

Forget.. me not in the mood to write anything more here.. but yeah. will keep getting back everytime I feel low and need to crib... Sorry, this blog is gonna be the place I am gonna crib... I am gonna complain..

Back Again!!

Hey.. am back..
Sorry for leaving this page untouched for ages.. as decided.. am gonna be scrapping crap here..

This page must be feeling "Like a virgin, being touched for the very first time" now.. ages since I blogged.. why?? was tired.. bored.. and most importantly.. was busy.. Lots has happened over the last few months.. most importantly.. a new place.. yes.. I moved with my family into a new place..a bit smaller than the old place, but its good.. Feels nice to be the owner of a house.. but yeah.. pinches real bad when I pay the installments every single month.. eats up most of my peanuts.. :(

Work has been hectic.. fun??? hmmm.. yeah.. used to be.. dunno if its the same place these days.. kinda feel lost.. don't see a purpose in putting a 100% these days.. the first 2 years here felt good.. everyone seemed to be friends.. work and fun at the same time.. but now, the dirty ugly worldly characteristics seems to be creeping in.. yup.. lots of politics, back-biting etc etc.. not gonna talk abt work here..

Hmmm.. wow.. kinda seems difficult to think of anything apart from work.. :) Never knew someday when I sit thinking about life, the only thing that would come to my mind would be work.. :) Am making a conscious effort to think of something else..

oh yeah.. after a long time, I sat to watch TV day before.. Dil Chahta Hai was playing.. I think its a brilliant effort by Farhan.. especially since its his first movie.. Loved the movie.. Farhan has wonderfully managed to bring out the emotions shared by friends.. don't think this has been portrayed so well ever before.. Enjoyed every bit of it..

Wondering why I decided to write today?? Well.. am in office.. all alone.. waiting for a call.. I felt like talking to someone.. so thought of this.. :) Glad am back here..

Last week, I had a couple of drinks after work with K and Abhi.. Wednesday, the reason was the Champions league finals.. (Damn!! I didn't even know who were playing) and Friday, because we had fun on Wednesday.. We really had fun bitching abt work and workmates.. hehe.. yeah.. who says guys don't bitch?? I guess its kinda a stress buster.. :) Only wish I had a buddy from my department who understands work that I do.. :) Nevertheless.. Thanks K and Abhi.. We need to do this more often.. :) Well yeah.. Mom was kinda pissed both the days.. was not quiet happy about the fact that I went drinking after work hours.. but I enjoyed it.. hmm.. K and Abhi.. let's not make this too frequent.. :)

Wow.. me feeling so much better after writing this.. no deletions.. no rewriting.. straight from my heart.. No edits.. :) I could go on and on..

I do not remember the last time I read the newspaper.. days, sorry weeks ago.. but yeah.. there is one section of Mumbai Mirror that I read daily.. nah.. u cheapos.. not the "Ask the sexpert" section.. :) Love the "Line Maro" section on the last page.. gives u nice cool sweet one-liners.. Remember reading one that goes something like this: "I thought cadbury was the sweetest thing on earth, until I met you." Cute na?? :) Ok fine.. At times, I do read the "Ask the Sexpert" section too.. you got to admit.. its informative.. :)

yeah.. I remember reading this freaking article in Mumbai Mirror ages ago.. Reading that a thought surfaced "Newspapers should go under the axe too, like movie".. this was a freaky article with pictures.. The article was about how sweepers in Mumbai are finding human foetus in dustbins.. Freaky.. the images in the articles left me disturbed for days..

Well.. well.. so much in 35 mins.. wow.. guess I'll stop here.. hands itching to write.. write abt the work environment around here.. but nah.. me decided not to talk abt work.. :)

Hi world!

Finally, my mind can ramble.. but unfortunaltly, it rambles only when it idle.. :( All yours buddy. This is your medium to talk to the world. Go ahead and speak out.